watercat57

So...life kinda sucks and then kinda doesn't. It has its moments when life is my best friend and rewards me with all kinds of wonderful things. But then again nothing can be all good all the time. School sucked last year, but I have my fingers crossed for this next one...hopefully I can finish up and move on. Big choices ahead, difficult ones too.

I lie here at 2 am thinking about a lot of things. One of them in particular is the my long distance relationship. For those of you who have been through and are going through this might understand...I would like to hope. There are many good and bad things in my mind about these types of relationships. The main dislike is obviously the distance, but strangely enough it is also a big factor in the positive to the relationship. One thing I have learned by having a LDR is how to appreciate the little things. Now that sounds very much like a cheesy movie line but its true. I am very grateful and in my opinion enjoy much more the time I have

    Late at night I lie awake, my mind begins to stir. It takes a walk and looks around at all the things its heard. lights go on and corners lit, everything is clear. My mind has many things to clean, and many things to hide.    Recently my memories have been an utter mess.  I stay up late and think about all the good things I have had. The tears come out from the good and never from the bad. Tears for him, my special guy, the one I've never had. The things he says are are stored away forever in my heart. Because he's earned a special place, my other half, my part.    Gentle touches and long held hugs, my skin remembers these. The soft l